I love you so much. I love you so much that when I think of you I am overwhelmed. I love you so much and I know this because the experience of loving you has changed me. I cry with gratefulness just thinking of you. I am powerless to change myself, other than changing my habits. I can only change myself by opening my heart to love and allowing the experience of it wash over me and break down all of what is not solid or true. I am so glad that my experience of you has so vastly overpowered my pain that, this morning, at dawn, over a cup of coffee, while all the sleeping bodies in my house rest, I can write down your name on a very, very, long list of who I love.