Fisterra Studio's East 2013 Artist images for on line catalog Shows

East Austin Studio Tour 2013

Fisterra 2013 EAST

East Austin Studio Tour at Fisterra Studio:

“Art Lives Here” by Robert Faires, Austin Chronicle cover story, November 14, 2013

Emma Hadzi Antich

Monique Capanelli

Norman Hera

Wells Mason

Katie Rose Pipkin

Lee Webster

PREVIEW PARTY: Thursday November 14, 7-10pm

Saturday & Sunday, November 16-17, 11a-6p, and

Saturday & Sunday, November 23-24, 11a-6p

See pictures of previous years’ EAST at Fisterra here

Cultural Arts Division, City of Austin

Show is funded and supported in part by the City of Austin through the Cultural Arts Division believing an investment in the Arts is an investment in Austin’s future. Visit Austin at



Creating Plutchick inspired flower map Writings

Let’s Get Lost

let's get lostWith satellite maps at our fingertips, it is almost impossible to get lost in the world anymore. If I think I know where I am going, I am likely to miss all the beautiful details of discovery. I may not even be able to describe the landmarks or paths that took me to my destination. What is distinct about right here?

I am at a concert, excitedly waiting to see if the band plays my favorite song. We are packed at the front of the stage. The guy whom I am pressed up against pulls out his mobile device and looks at, and–poof–the mystery is gone, my song will not be played.

We need maps, diagrams, plans, and information. But some of my most memorable experiences are of not knowing, of lostness. My senses are heightened, I remember every buy tramadol on line detail because much depends on my attention. Walking in Venice, on a hike in the woods, painting in my studio. I want to be surprised, I want to not know where this is going. I want to be solidly in the path, in the moment.

Vulnerability, uncertainty, chaos, anxiety. There is no failure while I still have the opportunity to try, that is why we do not judge someone’s life until they die. We go so far out of our way to avoid pain or intensity. Our arrogance deflects what is possible. Our money pads us from suffering. Sureness discounts wonder. I want to feel it all. The highs and lows do not stand out without all that blended color that is in the middle of our not knowing.

Image of House at Fisterra Studio, EAST Events

The Joy Circus that is EAST at Fisterra Studio


There is so much fun that happens at the East Austin Studio Tour every year that I have started keeping an online log of posts and photos of the annual experience.

If you have posted pictures to Flickr or your website that you would like to share, please send them on!

Fisterra Studio by Tracy Castro
Fisterra Studio by Tracy Castro

I am really grateful to have these community collective Flickr pictures. Thank you so much!

Austin Chronicle’s Best of 2012 Photo Gallery

Philip Roger’s Photos from EAST 2012

Dante Dominick’s Photos from EAST 2012

Roomfu blog

Art Alliance Austin’s EAST Preview Party 2011

Judith Simonds’ photos of EAST 2011

KLRU’s Collective EAST interview with Jennifer Chenoweth with footage of show

Andrea Pramuk’s Video Tour of the 2011 Show

Dante Dominick’s Photos from EAST 2010

Work by various artists plus Fisterra Guest Artists Wells Mason and Johnny Walker in 2010 by Art Alliance Austin

Art Alliance Austin’s EAST Preview Party 2010

More Preview Party 2010 by Art Alliance Austin


High Resolution Flower Map, Hedonic Map Project Writings

Right There: A Hedonic Map of Pleasure and Pain…


Co-Lab Projects, 613 Allen Street, Austin, TX 78704
Artist’s reception will be on October 12, 2013, 7:00pm-11:00pm
October 13-19, 2013 by appointment

Read the Austin Chronicle article on the project here.

Read the Austin American-Statesman article on the project here.

Read the Austin Monthly article on the project here.

Read the Tribeza article on the project here (pg 55).

Read the End of Austin interview about the project here.

Read The University of Texas at Austin’s Department of Psychology article here.

Help me make art: a Hedonic Map. I am launching a project that will first exhibit at Co-Lab in October 2013. I’m excited to announce that the project will be hosted by The University of Texas Department of Psychology during the spring and summer of 2014. I’ve been thinking about how we each have intense experiences in a certain places, and realize how connected we are to others who have similar experiences in the same spot, or could show on a map where he or she had the exact same feeling overtake him or her.

I want to make a map of those places of yours, of mine, of ours. I need your high-highs and your low-lows. I will create an installation: an emotional map of Austin, a Hedonic Map, so to speak. Austin, Texas: a city with so many awake order tramadol online people and intense experiences; I want to make a record of these lives in this place. Are there patterns?

I have researched different types of pain and pleasure by behaviorists, psychologists, thinkers, artists, and friends to create a series of questions for you to respond to as a survey.


Bentham’s list of Pleasures, Pains, and their Kinds

Plutchik’s chart of emotions

Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs

HintFM, the amazing creators of the Wind Map


Miranda July’s Learning to Love You More

Nickolay Lamm’s Income Disparity Project

Donald Kilpatrick

My friend Molly O’Halloran’s hand illustrated map of Austin

Teleportal + Broadcastr, Remember When You First Moved to Austin

John Beieler’s Visualization of Protests around the world posted on Ultraculture

Ultraculture: Tools for a Better Future

Mood Map of the U.S.

40 Maps That Will Help You Make Sense of the World

Body Atlas Reveals Where We Feel Happiness and Shame

SEND ME MORE external references if you know of any. Stay tuned, or email me with info or questions.

Cultural Arts Division, City of Austin
Projects by Fisterra Studio sponsored by the Cultural Arts Division of the City of Austin

This project is funded and supported in part by the City of Austin through the Cultural Arts Division believing an investment in the Arts is an investment in Austin’s future. Visit Austin at


Four Gates at Austin City Hall 2013-2015 Catalog

Four Gates


Steel, wood, ink, chalk, hardware, 98″ x 120″ x 120″

Read my writing about the process of making the Four Gates:

Planning the piece

Getting the wood base cut

My inspiration for the sculpture Four Gates is from Mark Helprin’s novel The Winter’s Tale.

There is a short chapter at the end of the first third of the book, page 219, titled Four Gates. Here is an excerpt from the chapter:

“To enter a city intact it is necessary to pass through one of the new gates. They are far more difficult to find than their solid predecessors, for they are tests, mechanisms, devices, and implementations of justice. There once was a map, now long gone, one of the ancient charts upon which colorful animals sleep or rage. Those who saw it said that in its illuminations were figures and symbols of the gates. The east gate was that of acceptance of responsibility, the south gate that of the desire to explore, the west gate that of devotion to beauty, and the north gate that of selfless buy tramadol online without prior prescription love.

The steel circles have four different diameters, 78″, 84″, 90″, and 96″ so that four different average sized adults can stand in the circles and expand the geometry of their reach to their biggest selves, as in Vitruvius’ drawing.  I inscribed on each of the four gates a section of the sentence above.  After conversations with friends, I chose the North Gate, that of selfless love, to be the largest. The largest and the smallest are opposite each other, and the two middle sized are opposite each other. When four people expand themselves inside the circles, they create a sculptural human community.

This sculpture was the focal point of the show. The “Four Gates Drawings” were made from these circles laying down on paper.


Four Gates from the East
Four Gates from the East
Sacred Space at the Dougherty Art Center
Four Gates from the West
Large Metal Circular Sculptures Installed
Photo by Ricardo B. Brazziell
Liana Putrino, Megan McIlwain and Katy Hirschfield in the gate of beauty sculpture, Sacred Space Art Party
Liana Putrino, Megan McIlwain and Katy Hirschfield in the gate of beauty, of course
Bright blue exterior of Full Bloom sculpture 2013-2015 Catalog

Full Bloom

paint on steel, concrete, 48″ x 62″ x 62″, 2013

Full Bloom is about the intensity of the compacted self. It is a mini temple for one person. It has a painting on the outside of the dome and another on the inside of the dome. The space is small, so only smaller adults or children might have the idea to go under it, so the inside is meant to be a surprise for the curious. Full Bloom has two different shapes tramadol for sale online painted on it in repeating patterns, “I Am Free” and “Beautiful Mess”. It is made from one 37″ diameter steel hemisphere with four 12″ hemispheres attached to the sides at an angle. The steel domes sit on top of four concrete columns made of stacked cylinders of concrete.

Full Bloom Inside
Underneath, looking up



Full Bloom and Drawings
Full Bloom and Drawings at the Dougherty Art Center



Full Bloom and Circle Walk Drawing
Under Full Bloom and Circle Walk Drawing


White silhouette of hand in a sphere, on a painted orange background, entitled Orange Hand 2013-2015 Catalog


oil and graphite on panel, 12″x12″x2″, 2013

oil and charcoal on panel, 12″x12″x2″, 2013

Hand Shadow Painting

Cezanne's The Nature of Desire, still life with skull painting Writings

The Nature of Desire


Food does not taste so good if I am not hungry. Wanting is part of the delight of being alive. If I drop into my hunger enough to be able to envision what I am craving, I have a chance to feel satisfied and eat a memorable meal. Meat: I am hungry. I want the best meat I know of: Mickelthwaits. Close by, surprisingly affordable for the quality, but often sold out or closed. Available? Eat, feel satisfied for days, even though other sustenance meals are eaten. Not available? tacos, Fresas, perhaps less memorable, but good. That restaurant won’t be there forever, enjoy it. Even better? Eunice cooking wild hog in my kitchen. Even better? that meal in 2002 in France.

Desire is not random. Nothing worth having is random, though chance and showing up is a great part of discovering someone worth desiring. By showing up, I have the chance to connect if I am paying attention. There is a great amount of information about someone in his body language, in the language of his voice, his laughter. I learn what calls to me by feeling desire. I’ve learned that some tragedies are beautiful and I lean into the humanity of compassion, but the bloody aftermath drains my self love. Healing love is not satisfying like the bright light of shared laughter.

I can only heal myself. I can love anyone, everyone, by healing myself. If I am full, there is no limit of what I have to give. Love is regenerative. I heal myself by loving what is unique to me, finishing my thoughts by writing, creating an artwork that I have imagined. Showing up and working in my practice. Embracing what is unique to me without shame.

Here is something beautiful I read recently as the opening sentence in a letter to Dan Savage: “I have recently come into who I want to be in this life and that is myself.” The letter goes on to describe the 20 year-old writer’s heartache that the boy he loves has decided that being gay is not ok. That first sentence is so good. And it will be my daily mantra for a while until I absorb it and move on to some other that satisfies me. What I want is me, fully alive, paying attention, wanting. What is it that is so good that I want more? A glance, a conversation, a dance, kisses, skin, nakedness, intimacy. What leaves me with a memory of unique experience, quality? What was specific to our connection that is not found in another? What are the details that I can perceive at first glance about someone’s vulnerability and confidence that lead to fire, or trust?

As I was telling a friend recently, when I was a young woman I was hit on constantly by men. I had no trust that this was personal, that I was uniquely attractive to them, it felt like daily assault, not appreciation. I was simply petite and blonde and fit their projections. That is the purpose of romance: for a desirer to gain the trust of the desired, to make the sex urge into a song that will get a response. Young women have no reason to trust an impersonal swipe, nor should they. To learn the power of their own selves and beauty is to learn how to say no to anything less than what honors them. But it takes time to trust their own taste, to sample, to learn what songs uniquely satisfy, and what to listen for. And surely that is more satisfying to a man also, to feel desired in return?

But having lived through my raw youth, romance seems like another tv commercial to get me to buy something I don’t need. It is persuasion. I’d much rather ask in kindness for what I want and have another person enjoy that request, whether or not they can give it. I trust much more someone who speaks his truth without an attempt to please me, or pander. Let me decide if what he is offering is what I want. Let me have my own power in my response.

All the happiness studies find that it is married men who report the most overall happiness. If they are the provider of their families, they have the power. They have a wife to plan, nurture and care for them and their offspring. If it satisfied me to exploit someone, I would want a wife too. If it satisfied me to exploit a man for the pay of his labor, I would marry for money. Instead, I have friends. We mutually meet each others’ emotional needs, companionate needs, and need for shared resources. We operate on the barter system and the gift economy.

By loving myself without judgment and giving my best to my family and friends, I am free to enjoy my hungers, desires, and tastes that make daily life full of beautiful delicacies. The fatness of bacon at breakfast. My sweat on the dance floor to a brass band. A cold Topo Chico in hot Texas summer. The taste of lemon and salt on his skin. And then wanting it again, the desire for more of that. That specific thing, that perfection.

Mortality makes me urgent for these flavors. Time is marking our chances for experience. We will be dead soon enough. The angle of the sun hits us the same way only so many days in a row. Look up each night, the stars in the sky will seem in different places in relation to where we are standing on this moving planet. Paint a still life: it only will look that way so long before the shadows are in a different place, before the fruit rots.

Pay attention to time, to timing. What is in season right now in the place that I am? That peach at the farmer’s market will not be there next week. Eat, enjoy. Let it drip down your fingers. Give one away to a friend.

Square with the World North Gate 2013-2015 Catalog

The Four Gates Drawings

ink and charcoal on paper, 105″x108″,each,  2013

The Four Gates Sculpture inspired four large drawings, each made by laying the large circles down onto large paper, asking friends to interact or compose themselves within the circle, and me drawing and painting a record of each in space and in relation to the circle.

Square with the World is the North Gate circle, the North Gate being that of selfless love. My friend Larry Vanston helped greatly in the conversation about decisions about the composition of the Four Gates, in addition to being a helpful neighbor and coming over every time I needed to move these huge things around. He made a very strong case that the gate of selfless love needed to be the largest circle. It is not a coincidence that the 96″ diameter circle is also the one that fits him all stretched out.

Since Larry’s polka drawing was a record of me dancing solo, this tramadol online no prescription drawing was one of the two of us doing a slow two-step to Mike Stinson’s Square With the World, a song that Larry chose for the piece.

Attachment is the East Gate circle, the East Gate being that of the acceptance of responsibility. My friends Carl and Claire, a couple, composed themselves in the circle.

Calculated Risk is the South Gate circle, the South Gate being that of the desire to explore. My friend Hart Blanton, a social psychologist and researcher, composed himself in the circle while looking at his iPhone reading the New York Times.

Saturation is the West Gate circle, the West Gate being that of the devotion to beauty. My beautiful friend Eunice Garza composed herself within this circle and allowed me to drench her with ink and let her play. I won’t show you a picture of that. But this is a record of her beauty on a page.

Bright red and yellow interior of Full Bloom sculpture Writings

Holy Wow

Full Bloom inside
Full Bloom inside

Only One Rule

by Hafiz

The sky
Is a suspended blue ocean.
The stars are the fish that swim.

The planets are the white whales I sometimes
Hitch a ride

The sun and all light
Have forever fused themselves into my heart
And buy generic zolpidem upon my

There is only one rule on this Wild Playground,

Every sign Hafiz has ever seen
Reads the same.

They all say,

“Have fun, my dear; my dear, have fun,
In the Beloved’s divine

O, in the Beloved’s